Daily fact #2

facts are so fucked up
because sometimes in order to give others happiness ,
all we have to do is take a simple step backwards and back away from their lives
it's just as simple as that yet so hard ; yet the best thing to do.

i know they might not understand , but it's okay.
we don't expect others to understand ,
they tend to judge,
but i don't mind , as long as they are satisfied with what they do or say.
it's none of my business to care and none of theirs to bother.

i know what i'm doing. ☺

DAILY FACTS

Everyday , i face the feeling of depression and confusion.
assignments are stacking up , financial problems, social problems, relationship problems.
it's killing my daily appetite , it's making me waste food when i can feed the homeless.
i have no idea who i can talk to, because no one walks in your shoes but yourself
so who could understand ?
stay up till midnight staring at the wall or kept myself busy by projecting emotions through a piece of paper and pencil.
priceless.

it's a burden having a heavy heart but it's even worse if you bothered someone else with your problems.


so i kept everything to myself
reminded myself ,
even if i was in a world where fake friends hug you
even if i'm doing and struggling my best and the best is not enough ; i will always keep trying

even if have a home you come home to but no one to talk to.
even parents who don't even ask you about your day.
people who stab you every single time you just take a turn.
people who come to you just for their own needs and throw you after what they wanted.

.IT'S OKAY.

revenge / getting back at 'em ain't gonna help you with anything
and it won't make you a better person by doing what they did.

so.
keep smiling even if i ain't happy.
keep laughing so that others could see.
-even if no one is there for you, being there for someone / cheering them up makes you happy knowing that you could be there to help. it's not always about give and take.

keep loving the ones who brought me up ; because i'm sure any kid who's homeless / has no parents would love to be in this position.
keep treasuring the ones around you ; good or bad, they made you stronger and pulled you through.
because no matter how fucking sad the days are , i know i'm not the only one going through this phase
so i rather not complain., others could be going through much worse.
so i stick with what i have and i make the best out of the roughest times.
so i intend not to get too close with the people i want most ; because the longer you hold on to the people the harder it is. it hurts.


people die
people change
memories don't


so thank them for the memories,
so thank them the times they made you laugh and smiled
live life with no regrets.

just don't expect too much

No one stays in your life forever , they tend to walk away one day.

so love them the moment they walk in

and prepare to bid them goodbye one day

me.you.we